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Your eyes reflect your pain
they do reflect your fears
You try to hide it all inside
but through your eyes I see the feelings you cannot hide
Stop living a lie
take your mask off and show me who you are inside
I know you're fragile and weak
i know it's love that you seek
Don't you know you're already mine?
Your cowardness was so big
that you didn't even have the guts to say goodbye

Your eyes reflect your pain
they do reflect your fears
Why are you so afraid of me?
Don't you wanna be happy?

My love is not obsession
you were my life, you were my passion
Sometimes I hate you so much
I wish you would fucking die

Your eyes refle

This PainTears roll down my face,
As I cut myself,
To release the pain.
It hurts so much,
But feels so good.
The pain is draining from me,
In drops of blood.
As I watch my pain leave from me,
I think,
"How can this be,
That I have so much pain
When I'm only merely 16?".
Then I remember the past that I've had,
Memories of yelling,
slamming doors,
all the awful scars.
I've cried too much,
I've hated so many,
That I don't think people will ever get me.
I come back from my world of thoughts
And realize that I've bled too much,
It's all over the counter,
It's becoming messy,
But I don't care.
I just want this pain out of me.
I'm

ALONENo one can see the pain that we hide,
They're happy for us to keep it inside,
Our fear is our own; they don't want to know,
Why sould we involve them; why should it show.

You live your whole life in confusion and fear,
The need to feel something unbearably near,
Half of you living, Half of you gone,
And inside you know what your doing is wrong.

The thing's that can help, the thing's that may heal,
Are the flame or the blade and the sting of the steel,
The destruction of skin means the death of your soul,
But there's nowhere to run when your living alone.

Pain

Pain so normal to me.
Physical, Mental, and Verbul pain, abuse.
The physical pain I do my self.
The cutting the scratching jst to feel the pain.
The mental pain from my family, my parents and there fights.
The verbal pain form people in school who hate me dont like the way I look if im not up to there standders.
I've been through it all.
But im use to it.
The physical pain atleast.

Hate

Right now,
I hate myself.
I hate everything about me.
I hate that I'm not beautiful,
I hate that I don't feel special,
I hate that I hate myself,
I hate everything about me.
I feel like I have,
This ball of depression,
Pushing down on the top of my lungs,
And my spine.
I don't know what to do,
It makes me feel sick.
And all I want to do,
Is vomit up my emotions.
And I have these notions,
That life isn't worth living,
When you're not living life,
But what is worth living life for?
I feel as if I have this fog,
Covering my brain,
And blinding my eyes,
And I hate it.
I hate feeling like no one cares,
I hate feeling like

Midnight and IThe thick, black velvet sky
hugs tightly to the mountains,
the tiny jeweled stars
glittering like emerald eyes
embedded in the heavy drape of night
And the world plays out
a sweet melody of silence

And we dance

Our bare feet gliding gently
over the dust of the milky way
and the cheshire moon smiles sweetly,
giving off a muted diamond glow
that bathes the room
and leeches colourless ou skin
so we becom as pale
as a twinkle in a midnight eye

And we dance

The bright green numbers
flashing dully on the bedside table
sing out in the darkness,
reminding me that life is short
and we will freeze time
in the persuit of finding

Headlights in the RainHazy, pale lights before me
Illuminating what's to come
but never what has been,
swallowed in the darkness
of dream forgotten long ago
Hazy, pale thoughts drip through my mind
like the diamond sparkles
rolling slowly down the windsheild,
glittering for a moment
in the oncoming lights
then falling into darkness
like all the rest
Why am I here?
the little voice asks again
and again I have no answer.
It's warm and dry,
I argue with myself
but I know thats no reason.
Still, it's the best I can do right now
I can't think
All I get are tiny thoughts
glittering quickly in my mind
ten swallowed by the darkness.
They have no mea

Yours. Mine. OursSweetest love had found me
that first day I saw you
All the days and nights
of unfulfilled dreams and
lonely hearts seemed almost
from another world
Joy replaced the darkness
as I grew to love you more
with ever passing day
we spent together
We told each other everything
we shared our hopes
and made each others
dreams come true
We loved without though
or question as to why
But the angels took you from me
and the darker days returned
My hopes began to die
and my dreams went unfulfilled
So many questions
with no answers to fill
my empty heart
One night I sat alone
under our tree
and as I stared down
at my empty h

The PainI thought I would cry when you were gone, but i didnt.
I thought I would die when you were gone, but i didnt.

But now I come to think of the times when we were happy, I cry.
I cry because I know that we were once happy together.
I cry because I know that I will never see you again.

And now the pain is settling in.
I die.

Broken DollTears of blood
fall from blackened eyes
to land upon bare feet
you shudder at the site
of my naked body
frail and blinding white,
like porcelain
Clutched between bony fingers,
petals falling one by one,
is a dying rose

Don't try to fix me
I'm not broken
Is a flower any less a flower
simply because someones
pulled free a few velvet petals?
Does a child love her teddy any less
simply because he's missing
an eye or an arm or a leg?
Am I any less human,
should you love me any less,
simply because someones
pulled free my shattered heart?
Don't try to fix me
I'm not broken

Placed gently back upon the shelf
Golden curls a

The Poet's EpitaphBreak not my slow sleep
By intonations of misery.
My death will not recoil
From your rosary,
But from knowing that damp soil
Could never wet my words.

PainWalking through the rain
With my heart full of pain
You are in my dreams at night
You are always in my mind
Why did you I have to run and hide
It was all I felt inside
And now this feeling won't go away
And don't leave me since that day
I'm feeling the strain
I'm holding the pain
My shadows are not new
My soul is slipping in two
You know my deepest sin
Fill me now like the wind
I've walked into a cave
And I've touched my grave

Alone

I feel alone.
Seperate from others.
Suffering from a broken heart.
I cry.

I have friends.
They care for me.
But their too busy with their lives.
Am I selfish?

I stand in the highwall not caring.
I watch my life pass by in blurrs.
Turning my head just looking around.
I bleed.

My heart bleeds.
I feel so alone.
I watch people hug and kiss.
I want.

I try to get noticed.
I scream at the top of my lungs.
No one notices.
I fall.

I curl up in fetal position in the middle of the floor.
I tug my hair gently to see if I'm still alive.
I claw at my skin to bleed more.
I disappear.

My life keeps on going.
But I dont.
I walk like

Pain

No one knows
how much pain is inside of you.
You lock yourself away
pretending that everything is ok.
When deep inside its tearing you apart,
you think that you have it under control
until you lose it all,
so you grab a knife and take a slice.
Next thing you know you're on the floor,
blood gushing from your wrist.
You slowly faint while death takes over
your place.

cutI drag the blade across my skin
Like many times before I dont even cringe
The blood runs down acting as tears
Closing my eyes shutting out all my fears
The blade is my new found friend
Going across my skin ageain and ageain
No one sees no one knows
I act as if im in a show
Inside I feel so numb
I just wish that my time would come

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No Pain

by ~AngelsDemise, Aug 14, 2006, 6:00:41 AM
Literature / Poetry / General Poetry / Free Verse

you see no mark upon my skin
you see no tear in my eye
you see no sign of pain
therefor I must not be in pain

I must not cry myself
to sleep at night
or wake up screaming
because of haunted dreams
I must not pull the blade
across my skin
and hope that one day
it drives in deeper
I must not fear the darkness
or shudder at the thought of silence
I must not hide myself from
life and prying eyes that
judge your worth as a person
upon the shine of your smile

you hear no gasp escape my mouth
you hear no horror tale from my past
you hear no words of pain
therefor I must not be in pain

I must not scream so loud it's silent
or throw things against my
bedroom walls
I must not kick and scream
and punch things that no one else can see
I must not drown myself
in the brown bagged bottle
in the hopes that i will forget
or tie the rope around my neck
and pray i find the courage to
pull it tighter

you don't see or hear my pain
therefor you think i feel no pain
you see what I choose for you to see
you hear what I choose for you to hear
you know not what he did to me
you know not what she did to me
you know not what you did to me
you know not the pain I feel
you know only what I want you to know
but just because you do not see or hear it
does not mean that the pain is not there
locked away inside of me, where it will always be

No Painby ~AngelsDemise

Literature / Poetry / General Poetry / Free Verse

this is really not that good....i'm just venting now.............In the first 6 years of my life I went through things that would make you want to throw up(they still make me throw up)....I am dead inside because of the things I have seen and heard....and it is for this reason that I refuse to let people see or hear my pain........I have always had people tell that it is amazing that i don't feel any pain because of these things.....that it would have killed them if they went through it......that i am so "normal" and "well adjusted" (gggrrrr.....words used by fashion zombies, sheep and polititions)........the asume that there is no pain there because it is not seen or heard.....out of sight out of mind....truer now then ever.........and yeah i was just venting about that....every so often i need to vent......no matter how bad my ramblings are

~~mad 0 0~~

~Dalyla-Imaginarium 6 days ago Hobbyist Digital Artist

I've been going through some rough things the last few years. I've been diagnosed with major depression, social anxiety disorder, and insomnia. I've been hospitalized twice in the last two years and have attempted suicide recently. Now it seems like I have bipolar disorder. I'm in a lot of pain and this describes it perfectly. I can't even imagine what you have been through. I'm sorry.

~AngelsDemise 5 days ago

I am sorry you are going through such a rough time. I know what its like. And if you need a friend who understands feel free to message me. Also I know it sounds like the same crap everyone sprouts at you, but having been where you are more then a few times, I can tell you that there are moments in life that make all the rest of the crap worth it. It's just a matter of gritting your teeth long enough to experience them. But I am here if you want to talk, and if not, that's fine too and I am glad my ranting helped put a description to your feelings.

~Dalyla-Imaginarium 4 days ago Hobbyist Digital Artist

Thank you very much I'll keep that in mind.

~silvertheartst Apr 28, 2013 New member Hobbyist Traditional Artist

Sometimes I'm like that so its real hard to hear that

~SonsOfAzrael Apr 3, 2013

Venting is good. As i shall vent now. Pain is nothing but an expression. It hides true feelings of hurt and lost. But when you lose the ability to feel it.. you miss it. You miss knowing you are alive.

~bleakwar Mar 3, 2013

I lack the control at times but then they took my tools now it's all I can do to not want the knife. (random Idea I'm thinking to try to write about) p.s. I like your writing

~carolaian Mar 3, 2013

I just understand so much what you mean...

~theangelofdeath777 Feb 16, 2013

I get that feeling all the time, people think they know you just by how you look on the outside. if some people just took the time to look on the inside, they wouldnt last long.

~ShadowCatofHell Feb 7, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

I know how that feels... Everyone thinks your fine because you look fine or act fine. But people only look skin deep. No one sees internal scars because they don't take the time to look. And when they find out that they are there, they act super shocked.

~LmonLimeCat Jan 24, 2013

This is exactly how I feel.

I've had such horrid things happen to me and I've managed to hide it for like 4 years.
And everyone thinks I'm completely and utterly happy.
Anyway, I can totally relate to the feeling and I'm glad that I fav'd it!

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