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No Pain by ~AngelsDemise:iconAngelsDemise:

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you see no mark upon my skin
you see no tear in my eye
you see no sign of pain
therefor I must not be in pain

I must not cry myself
to sleep at night
or wake up screaming
because of haunted dreams
I must not pull the blade
across my skin
and hope that one day
it drives in deeper
I must not fear the darkness
or shudder at the thought of silence
I must not hide myself from
life and prying eyes that
judge your worth as a person
upon the shine of your smile

you hear no gasp escape my mouth
you hear no horror tale from my past
you hear no words of pain
therefor I must not be in pain

I must not scream so loud it's silent
or throw things against my
bedroom walls
I must not kick and scream
and punch things that no one else can see
I must not drown myself
in the brown bagged bottle
in the hopes that i will forget
or tie the rope around my neck
and pray i find the courage to
pull it tighter


you don't see or hear my pain
therefor you think i feel no pain
you see what I choose for you to see
you hear what I choose for you to hear
you know not what he did to me
you know not what she did to me
you know not what you did to me
you know not the pain I feel
you know only what I want you to know
but just because you do not see or hear it
does not mean that the pain is not there
locked away inside of me, where it will always be
©2006-2009 ~AngelsDemise
:iconangelsdemise:

Author's Comments

this is really not that good....i'm just venting now.............In the first 6 years of my life I went through things that would make you want to throw up(they still make me throw up)....I am dead inside because of the things I have seen and heard....and it is for this reason that I refuse to let people see or hear my pain........I have always had people tell that it is amazing that i don't feel any pain because of these things.....that it would have killed them if they went through it......that i am so "normal" and "well adjusted" (gggrrrr.....words used by fashion zombies, sheep and polititions)........the asume that there is no pain there because it is not seen or heard.....out of sight out of mind....truer now then ever.........and yeah i was just venting about that....every so often i need to vent......no matter how bad my ramblings are

Comments


:iconrabbitlamere:
~rabbitlamere Aug 14, 2006, 5:14:58 AM
I think its very good. way better then the crap I write

--
you cant spell slaughter with out the laughter
:iconelectrobaby:
~ElectroBaby Aug 14, 2006, 7:54:16 AM
I'm going to fave this. :D Good job!
:iconangelsdemise:
~AngelsDemise Aug 15, 2006, 2:40:43 AM
lol thanx................but i really don't like this one all that much

--
on my knees...i am FREE

cause we all end up
in a tiny pine box
with a mighty short drop
in a mighty small plot!- Graverobber (Repo! the genetic opera)
:iconangelsdemise:
~AngelsDemise Aug 15, 2006, 2:41:55 AM
thank you..........

--
on my knees...i am FREE

cause we all end up
in a tiny pine box
with a mighty short drop
in a mighty small plot!- Graverobber (Repo! the genetic opera)
:iconogtinc:
~Ogtinc Sep 25, 2006, 5:08:03 AM
I like it too, I know what you mean about having to vent yourself sometimes, whether you feel pain, grief or even love.
-Og-

--
Smile, it could be worse
:iconfbw:
~FBW Jul 29, 2007, 9:29:19 PM
This is great. I understand what you mean. I've been called emotionless because I'm good at hiding the fact that I'm hurting. Others believe that I just don't feel it or its not there. They drive me crazy. Their ignorance just heightens what I'm feeling.

--
"To cast the final blow upon Serpeant is to cast the final blow upon yourself"-Lucifer
"To look upon Kaos in battle means that Thanatos has already received your soul"-Gabriel
Quotes from a story I'm writing.
:iconangelsdemise:
~AngelsDemise Jul 30, 2007, 6:07:05 PM
thankyou.......its horrible to be treated the way we get treated.....but i believe it is better to deal with my pain on my own instead of causing more pain by sharing it

--
on my knees...i am FREE

cause we all end up
in a tiny pine box
with a mighty short drop
in a mighty small plot!- Graverobber (Repo! the genetic opera)
:iconfbw:
~FBW Jul 30, 2007, 11:37:03 PM
I understand. Pity and sympathy is just another form of pain to me and I don't like to spread that around.

--
"To cast the final blow upon Serpeant is to cast the final blow upon yourself"-Lucifer
"To look upon Kaos in battle means that Thanatos has already received your soul"-Gabriel
Quotes from a story I'm writing.
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~sarahlovesrats Aug 9, 2007, 4:27:59 PM
This...this poem. Oh. My. God. WOW. I have never, ever felt such emotion in a poem before. This is amazing.

--
Although the fall will kill me, for a moment I shall fly.
:iconangelsdemise:
~AngelsDemise Aug 9, 2007, 7:48:17 PM
thankyou so much

--
on my knees...i am FREE

cause we all end up
in a tiny pine box
with a mighty short drop
in a mighty small plot!- Graverobber (Repo! the genetic opera)
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